Friday, October 13, 2006
( 7:04 AM ) teahouse
It's been a tough week. I was out sick yesterday. My doctor said that my asthma has come back. Six months ago he told me I was cured, and took me off the meds and inhalers. But I guess we celebrated too soon.
I'm pretty sure it's stress related. Which sucks.
Having asthma again makes me more stressed. Which makes the asthma worse. It's a vicious cycle.
At this week's orchestra rehearsal, I was gasping for air. Not good for a wind player.
It doesn't help that people keep calling and emailing to ask me when I'm going to leave New York, since obviously it's too dangerous to live here in light of airplanes flying into buildings, etc.
So I'm trying to breathe deeply and think about pleasant things.
Like bunny rabbits and cool breezes and the beach and my warm bed in winter and Kumamoto oysters and bologna and liverwurst sandwiches and hot chocolate and green tea and milk chocolate with almonds and my favorite bathrobe and fuzzy slippers and the Mets making the playoffs.
But so far, the only thing that relaxes me these days is drinking.
Somehow I don't think that's the answer. #